Monday Weigh-In (03.october.2011)

I feel like I'm falling into a cloud of fog, lost and confused. Loosing myself.
My weight has been horrible, but my effort has been worse.
I try, and then I don't. My discipline has vanished. I continually give in over and over and over again.
I keep thinking that it's ok, just once more, just once piece of happiness, but it's never enough.
It's getting harder and I have no will. What do I do?
I'm sick of 'having breaks' to get back on top of things. Nothing is working. Everything I have achieved is slipping out of my grasp.
59.1kg's (130.3)

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