Loss at last

It's exam week, I've completed 1 exam and the other 3 major exams will be next week.
I'm just taking every day as it comes, if I look too far forward I start to get stresses about the exams.



When I feel fat I can't concentrate on anything other than how fat I feel, so my study suffers. That's why this week has helped.

Since beginning the week on 64kg's, (141.1 lb/pounds) I have made a conscious effort every day to watch my intake. I eat a lot healthier, mostly green vegetable sand those high in folate (good for study/brain function), then other vegetables and fruits, egg for protein and porridge for breakfast to sustain me that way I don't snack. I have 1x multivitamin in case I don't get what I need in my diet for the day, and 2x 1500mg fish oil tablets for my studying.


If there is 2 pieces of advice I have it's these, and it's common knowledge:
1. ALWAYS have breakfast- you'll only slow your metabolism down and cause weight gain in the future
2. STOP SNACKING. It cuts out so many extra un-needed calories!
        Some days I get peckish around 3 - 4pm, I cut an apple into quarters, then I take 1 quarter, finey slice it and have that with loads of water. Some times your body really isn't hungry, it's just thirsty. 

I love chewing on gum, and during a day where I have an exam I will put a piece in before hand. Chewing gum improved brain recall and memory by up to 35%.

 I've started doing sit-ups again: 10 on monday and increase by 1 more every day. It's not much, but I can already tell the difference and at least it is achievable.

 So, I'm glad to say I've started to loose at last, in the weight sense that is. I weigh myself every morning   before breakfast, only in my underwear and after I've gone to the toilet. It's more accurate that way. (I've always done it like that)



This mornings weight: 62.4 kg's (137.6 lb/pounds)

It makes me feel great getting on that scale and seeing all my hard work pay off, it's better any any other high there could be.

A small step is all it takes

Indeed, a small step is all it takes to keep going.
I guess I've been at a standstill for a while, but today that changed.
I forced myself to get on the scale this morning and wasn't surprised by what I saw; 64kg's (141.1 pounds)
Today I really tried. And I'm glad to say, I took the first steps to going back into the right direction.
I just tried to cut out the crap basically; no carbs.
All went well, I even avoided having some of my sisters wedges. Stupid deep dried potatoes.
Unfortunately however, I did have some ice-cream around dessert. Luckily it was pretty much only a scoop. So if that's the only bad thing I did today, well then that ok with me.
I also did 10 sit ups this morning. I know, not much, but something is better than nothing!

P.s. Thank you girls for you comments :)  It's nice having people around for once who don't judge me and actually want to me succeed! xox

Not dead, just incredibly lost

Hi. It's been so long. I'm not dead, hence the fact I have written this post.
I've been keeping my distance because it means if I'm here then I have to face the facts.
Facing a reality which hurts too much right now. I'm so incredibly fat it is outrageous. I miss feeling good.

My parents tell me to go to the gym- but I don't.
My sister- oh yes, little miss perfect who goes away for a year and gets fat only to come home and go back to being a skinny bitch again, well, even she tells me I need to loose weight.
I know she's disgusted when she looks at me. She's told me so.

My mind is so lost. I feel like I succeeded last year in every way possible, but this year hasn't been going so well.

If I left you in suspense from my last post, well I'm sorry!
What I wanted to say was;
- taking laxitives long term causes chronic diarrhoea, leading to lack of nutrients
- purging damages the lining of your insides. If you start coughing/ vomiting/purging blood, PLEASE get help ASAP, it means there is a hole in the wall, which causes extreme severe blood loss, and eventual death.

I won't be around for a few more weeks, my exams are here!
I've decided to come clean, a new start, I see no reason to hide my identity;

Hi. My name, my real name, is Megan. I live in Perth, Western Australia.
I have brown hair and brown eyes.
On the 1st of November 2012, this year, I will be 21 years old- and that scares the shit out of me.
I'm in my final year of University to become a Registered Nurse.
I will be thin.
I will do ANYTHING it takes.
And I will look like this;

p.s. This new blogger layout is so confusing!

I am being, and have been, completely honest. If you want to ask me anything at all, I will answer to the best of my ability.