Today was a good day. I met up with my friend who knows about this. She understands what it's like and knows how easy it is to give in and be absorbed by this whole thing.
I worry that I might trigger her though, but I can finally say how I really feel.
We talk about that guy a lot. She gets why I can't picture him being with me due to this weight.
I just wish he knew.
Great news though; My stomach muscles are knitting back together! and it's getting easier to do my sit ups so I've bumped it up to 25, but last night I did at least 40. By next week it will be 30.